* diary *

2009-06-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

now i know the reason why dad allow mum

to go for singing and dancing lesson.

if i can choose, i rather not to know what he had said ytd.

worry for him. ):

2009-04-28T10:26:00.003+08:00

='(

2009-04-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

mind so confuse.

wants to say/ shout.

but dunno who/where to go to.

hoping to find out the answers soon.

2009-04-09T22:26:00.005+08:00

Life is so fragile.

you wont know what will happen next,

its hard to predict it.

so cherish everyone when you still

have the opportunity to do so.

today, when i heard abt my friend's grandpa,

it reminds me of grandma.

going to 1 year, but i still rmb

everything tat happen on that day.

I'll always rmb 4 May.

grandma, i miss you.

2009-04-06T21:55:00.006+08:00

I'm just too lazy to update! =P
almost forgot what i had done recently. =x
In short,

21 mar- moved house,
29mar- last day of work,

01 mar- sch starts
02 apr- celebrated xz's bade.

photos time!

jeslyn and me. (:

Dearies. (:

2009-03-15T20:55:00.009+08:00

ytd went for movie with junie and gracie.

watch Push. their power are so lame!

like no use one. =x after that went to take

neoprints and i bought new hp. LG Secret.

thanks to Gracie! without her help,

i wont be able to get it.

Night time, we celebrate suhui's 21st bade.

she held her party at our function room.

hope she did enjoy the celebration.

will post those photos that we took

once i get it from them. (:

2009-03-10T21:09:00.009+08:00

recently was busying.

finally exams are over!

currently working at shangri-la hotel.

first time working in hotel. different experience.

i was stunned when i first got there.

its different from what i think.

first day, sis brought me walk around

and everywhere are her and bro's friends.

they know alot of ppl sia. see until i blur.

their face are almost the same. =/

yeah!!! our new hse is almost done.

just now went over to see the curtains and lights.

i likes my curtain's colour. (choosen by me ma. hehe.)

but mum keep saying its too dark! LOL.

renovation finished. now only left with sofa and

dining table. tml they will be coming over. (:

time passes fast. 11 days more,

and we'll moving over to our new hse! (:

still waiting~

photo time!!
taken on Feb.

taken on the day when we went to
watch rainie, wang dong cheng and hu yu wei.
They are handsome and pretty!!!

2009-02-19T16:26:00.005+08:00

finally, our new hse key is here!

ytd went to take a look.

the facilities are must better than the old one.

sun going there again.

will take photos and blog it.

stay tune! (:

questions in my heart,

still trying to find out the ans.

CNY

2009-02-01T23:45:00.012+08:00

Time to update! (: lets talk abt CNY's eve first. this year, we cant

celebrate CNY. steamboat is cancelled. just a simple dinner at

grandpa's hse. only third aunt and family not ard.

this yr is different from the past, grandma not ard with us.

grandma will be happy to see us gather around. (:

1st day of CNY. everyone gather at grandpa's hse again coz

we cant bai nian. dad ordered vegetarian buffet. was eating,

playing ard, chit-chatting and watching vcd. i did enjoy it,

so how abt others? (: after that, eunice and family

went to malaysia and slowly, everyone left. went to guan yin

temple to pray. lots of ppl! 2th and 3th day, we stayed at home

for drama marathon and went to catch "the wedding".

not bad. 3 thumbs up!

grandpa, jeslyn, eunice, bernice.

sister. (:

cousins!

♥ this pic!
cuties.

>.<

2009-01-07T20:52:00.005+08:00

everyday need to wake up early for school.

not enough slp! afternoon need to take a nap,

if not, the next day will fall aslp during lesson.

2 projects and 2 individual assignment are given.

only a few weeks to do.

dunno if can make it on time anot.

today, keep sneezing in class.

damn xin ku! having sore throat too. ):

after class, went to meet jeslyn at funan mall.

she bought a camera. after that went

to causeway pt to shop.

had dinner before heading home.

goanna take medicine and slp early. (:

2009-01-01T11:10:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year!!

Hope all my wishes can come true. (:

2008-12-22T00:56:00.003+08:00

knee cap starts to pain again. ):

last time it recovered, now back again.

cant squat.

walk also will feel the pain.

still need to go work.

stand for the whole day.

but I'm enjoying it!

maybe tml after orientation,

ask mum to bring me go see doctor.

2008-12-16T16:19:00.008+08:00

recently, was busy working. no time to blog.

will try to update more frequently. (:

_ 7Dec, Sunday_

wake up early and headed off to grandpa's hse. coz 3rd uncle is

going to celebrate grandma's bade. he said this is the first yr,

so can celebrate. he bought a cake and some food to pray.

big aunt cooked a lot of food too. everyone gathered together

except for eunice's family and sis. think grandma will be happy

to see all of us there. she loves 熱鬧. after praying, i went to

prepare to work and i was late! luckily, bro drove me there

(asked mum to drove me but she dun want. bro going

out and Jes asked him). his attitude towards me changed.

_6 Dec, Saturday_

after work, went to Je to celebrate mummy's bade. actual Chinese

date is tml and is the same day as grandma. sis and i bought a top,

bro and Michelle bought a cake ( they dunno what to buy plus bro

in army.) as usual, the same restaurant. we had been going there

since i was young. two grp of ppl were having wedding dinner.

smth came across my mind, so i asked them, " if you are poor, are

you going to have a wedding dinner and share the place with

other ppl or dun want to have a wedding dinner? " Jes and me had

the same thinking. if we cant do the best (have it in hotel), mind as

well dun set up a wedding dinner. Dad and sis : at least set up a

few table for the 2 families. think mum din ans me. =x

Grandpa and Dad.

Dad and Mum. (:

bought by bro and Michelle.

Sista.
Jes. (:

My fav!

2008-11-24T23:27:00.003+08:00

first day of work.

boring! tired!

leg goanna break soon. ):

stood for 7.5hrs.

tml doing the same things again...

2008-11-22T15:48:00.010+08:00

yeah i found a job! start work on Mon. (:

meet Jeslyn for lunch at west mall and she wants to buy crystal but

the shop closed. -.-" heading to imm to buy. went giant to buy drinks.

found out that there is a promotion for contact lens solution, 2 for $11.50.

bought contacts lens and solutions and ez-link card holder from precious thots. (:

after that went to Jeslyn's hse and wait for Eunice and Bernice to come.

thanks Suyi for informing me. (:

bought apple pie for grandpa and he is happy! hahas.

below are photos of my lovely cousins.

will upload more after get it from jeslyn. (:

Eunice.

school concert.

(she keep forcing us to look at her sch

concert photos for many times.)

Bernice. (:
2 lovely sista.

2008-11-19T18:42:00.004+08:00

finally results are out and i managed to pass every subject. (:

2008-11-17T23:16:00.013+08:00

planning for gym but end up too lazy to go. =x had dinner with chienjuen, huili,

emily and yeecheng. as usual, emily used the tissues to squeeze out those oil.

and yeecheng keep saying "fan lah". so surprise that we ate faster than emily.

during sch days, she always the one who finish it first. hahas. after that,

went for a walk at giant. four of us are chatting among ourselves and yeecheng

on phone. when we are walking out of giant, yeecheng was hold by a security

guard. he said: "i caught you without paying it". he shocked and called chienjuen

and we are laughing at him. coz his hand is holding onto dynamo. he was chatting

happily that he forgot that he haven't pay yet. hahahas!
took some photos and home sweet home. (:

oh ya. my phone is back and hp key chain is ready to be collect. (:

before heading off to imm. (:

inside toliet. =x

last friday.

2008-11-12T21:27:00.010+08:00

these few days, went to a lot of places to do my things. accompany jes to hospital.
2 days at sgh, 1 day at nuh. went to Daiso to get my box and container, send my
hp key chain for service, get shawl, back to fuhua sec to get my testi, send my
phone for service and went guan yin temple. all at different places. these are all
the things that i wanted to do after exam. oh ya, i changed my blog skin and tidy
up my cardboard. everyday wake up @ 8am and went to meet jes and get those
things done. tired~ feel like staying at home for one day and chiong my shows.
my shows are waiting for me! hahahas.

i think my phone is going to die soon. sent it for repair and the ppl told me that
they will try to repair but if cannot then need to say bye bye le. ): want to get
a job so that i can get a new phone.

hate using public transport! today there was an Indian lady standing beside me
and kept squeezing me. dirty! i faster move away, but she still come near me
then i use my elbow to push her back. dunno if she was unwell or what. at first
she was hugging the pole. awhile later she walk to the corner and squat and slp.
everyone is looking at her but she dun feel pai seh at all! after that another
Indian guy came and squeeze in so i did the same thing but like no use. he no
feeling one. so i faster shoo~
how i wish i can have my own vehicle. (:

i cant use lappy for 3 days. kana confiscate by dad. ):

2008-11-07T20:12:00.009+08:00

human beings are weird creatures. one moment say this, another

moment say that. you wont know which is the right one. you wont

know if that person is a gd or a bad person. becoz human change

very quickly and easily. suddenly, i asked myself if i actually know

those person ard me very well, including my family. the person that

you are close with or you think you know that person well, actually

you are not. becoz human beings are difficult to understand. you

wont know what that person will do to you in the next moment.

sometimes, even family can betray you. life is unpredictable.

做人真難.

everything has changed.
maybe is all fated.
i know i did change too.
but not sure izzit a gd or a bad thing.
smth i also dun know what I'm thinking
and dunno if what i did is right or wrong.

where will i go after i die, heaven or hell?

just some deep thought. (:

2008-11-07T18:24:00.004+08:00

finally, exam is over.

2 days back, i was quite excited for exam to over.

thinking of what am i going to do after exam.

but now, i'm not.

i dunno why.

i can feel that, heavy stone is still there.

2008-11-01T17:11:00.006+08:00

deleted previous post.

it alr over.

next week is exam

i shld concentrate on studies

and not other things.

oh ya. i failed my btt.

getting a driving licence is so dificult.

hope Jeslyn get well soon. (:

2008-10-19T20:11:00.005+08:00

as usual, wake up early and had breakfast.
ate carrot cake and prata. alot? hahas.

wo shi tan chi de!

chit-chatting while eating.
he talks abt his army thingy.
i talks abt.... lots of things. lol.
also discuss abt our new hse.
it goanna be ready soon~
finally, able to catch my Doremon, 9.3am.
after that, went over to Fair price to shop.
spent $150+. dad scared to go there with us. hahas.
dad bought 3 vcd. Mr bean, Get connected & Painted skin.
ytd watched Get connected and today, Painted skin.
lots of qns floating in my brain after watching it.
went over to granny's hse for dinner.
the hse is so big but only left granny and maid. others went out.
suddenly had the feeling that she is so lonely and ke lian.
what i observe is that they are "using" her.
(better dun say too much since I'm an outsider.)

ppl will make you angry without knowing it,

but what is the point of getting angry when no one knows it?
learn it after reading 莫生氣. ((:

photos photos!

2008-10-16T20:23:00.003+08:00

today had a whole day lesson.

morning, accounts. afternoon, management.

damn tired. and was having headache.

失眠 for the past few nights.

too stress, maybe.

tml is the last day of school,

which means that exam is coming soon.

goanna really study hard for it. (:

will spend lesser time on lappy and tv.

but i'll try to blog at least once a week ya? hahas.

will upload photos when i get it from my friends. (:

2008-10-11T22:45:00.009+08:00

__Friday__

Happy B'day Chien Juen!

dhf are helping Juen to celebrate in the afternoon,

i din go as I'm having lesson.

huili and i planned to give her a surprise in the night.

but blurry qw, went to told her that we are going

to her house to ton. lol. they came back late, so we

helped her to celebrate at 12.02am (think so). =x

hope she enjoy it! loves her!

bade girl. (:

qw and juen.

huili and xz.

us. (:

__Thursday__

meet huili after sch to buy juen's present.

both of us are cracking our brain on what to buy.

from juen's blog, know that she wants a lanyard.

went to bugis to find nice one.

planned to buy a lanyard with her name on it.

bought the stripe from mu-ee and went to push cart there

to choose the design for her name and the tendant told me that

is too thick, those alphabet cant fit in.

told her that my friend (juli) bought the same stripe with her name on it.

why the stripe i bought cant fit in??!

pestering her for a long time.

finally, she let us to exchange the stripe.

but those stripe are much more shorter.

sianz nor. no other choice.

hope that juen will like it. ((:

__Wednesday__

this is the candy that we bought it from the "integrity" push cart.

there is no shopkeeper. you just need to put in the correct amount into

the box and can walk away with the things you want.

four of us were eating this during lesson time.

and lecturer asked "why is everyone eating lollipop?" hahas.

took by eve. (:

2008-10-07T23:12:00.003+08:00

today is eagle eye clinic 2nd yr anniversary.

treated us dinner and "eagle eye" movie at vivo.

headed off to vivo, after class.

(gracie, i din miss the stop leh. hahas.)

had buffet and went in for movie.

the advertisement is so longg,

almost fall aslp. =x

the movie is exciting and stress!

heart almost jump out. hahas. =p

after movie, its alr 9.30 and home sweet home. (:

2008-10-05T23:26:00.005+08:00

is there really true love in the world?

sometimes, i did envy those loving couple.

but why they still separate when i see them so lovely?

am i just seeing one side of it only?

what is the point of being together?

in the end, both of you will still separate right?

trust and honest are important.

but why when one party lies for many times,

din give any reason

and another party still forgive him?

in the newspaper,

you can see that husband and wife

divorced after being tgt for many yrs.

or had quarrel and kill each other.

does ppl change so easily?

♥ beloved grandma ♥

2008-10-04T16:27:00.005+08:00

tears rolling down when reading jeslyn's blog.
it really make me remind of lots of things.
those day that we are together.
everyone was living beside each other.
we'll celebrate festival and bade together.
coz grandma loves all of us to gather together.
she took care of all the grandchildren when our parents are working.
and we always make her angry.
by skipping meals and not drinking water.
i admit that sometimes we are rude to her,
but we know that she cares for us and loves her too.
still rmb that during middle of the night,
if we are having nose bleeding, fever or cant sleep
3 of us will climb through the kitchen hole to look for her.
she will cook meals for everyone even though there is a maid.
we'll always sneak the food to eat whenever she finish cooking a dish
and she'll laugh and call us " rat"(in hokkien).
we dislike vege and only eat meat,
she'll say " ai sa pun jia wu chun"(hokkien).
she was the one who always wait for everyone to finish eating then she eat.
she did everything for everyone and will not " mai yuan".
she and grandpa always quarrel and even use knife to "threaten" each other.
but we know that they still care and love each other.
after we moved hse, she will come over and stay on weekends.
sis and i will take turn to sleep with her.
at that time, i scared of dark.
so everytime once i lay on the bed,
I'll say, " grandma, wait for me, I'll wake you up if i cant slp hor. "
and she'll pat my shoulder till i fall aslp.
she treats everyone like her own child.
she spent more time on me than my mum did.
she is closer to me than my mum.
really miss her alots...

she'll always in our ♥.

I'll always rmb this date, 4may.

2008-10-03T23:47:00.002+08:00

econs is a boring lesson. cant wait for the time to past! after sch, went to bugis to meet sis and jeslyn. jeslyn treated us dinner at v8. fish & chip. while eating, was brainwashing jeslyn's brain. but i dun think it works. =/ went shopping and 记得吃 for dessert. sis treated us. today so good ya? hahas. (:

mango grape fruit.

sweet in heart. sounds nice right? hahas.
actually both are 杨枝干露.

sweet in heart is the latest version

mango grape fruit is the older version.

jeslyn and me prefer mango grape fruit. (:

does we look alike?

2008-10-02T22:31:00.009+08:00

after sch, went town with junie and eve. went to grab a bite first. had vanilla ice-cream with hot brownies and potato salad. yummy yummy! after that headed off to DFS to search for eve's wallet. before we heading back, went restroom. eve is so blur + forgetful that she had left she handphone in the restroom. by the time she realised it, the phone was been taken by other ppl. eve recognised the ppl so we went around to find the gal. eve was worried for those contacts and not her phone. =/ junie was blasting while i was msging eve's phone. luckily the gal did pick up the call when i called. gal, next time be more careful ya? (:

vanilla ice-cream w hot brownies.

guess which plate belongs to who? (:

_Wednesday_

Happy Birthday Daddy!! went boon lay raja restaurant to celebrate. (: five of us (jeslyn, bro, his gf, sis and me) bought 1 top and 2 polo tees for dad. guess what he say again... "waste money". today maid is the first time having holiday, she went out with granny's maid from 8am to 9pm. know what she told us? they took the wrong train and travel four times then they reach orchard. so blur right? hahas.

took some photos.

all my fav foods. ((:

chilled crabby.

butter crabby.
cereal prawns.
mango pudding.

2008-09-30T23:28:00.005+08:00

This post is for my dearest jeslyn!!

everything is unpredictable.

you wont know what will happen next.

you wont know what other ppl is thinking or doing.

dun think that the world is unfair.

why other ppl can have happiness, and you cant.

why must you compare yourself with others?

everyone has their own way of living.

even poor ppl can live happily too. so why cant you?

its just the matter on how you think it.

dun think make things so complicated.

stop torturing yourself.

"delete" those unhappy memories,

and stop thinking of why the person is doing this to you.

if the person really wants to lie or hide anything from you,

you'll never ever know it.

so why dun you just hack care this person,

and live happily?

stop isolating yourself, and emo!

dun forget, you still have us! (:
cheer up ya!! ((:

2008-09-29T21:19:00.004+08:00

today went to sch early to revise before going for accounts test, end up was 5 mins late for the test. =x Junie, eve and me finish it quite early and left the classroom. we were checking our answer between ourselves and hope that we can score well for it. (: after that lesson starts, learn new format. dad came to fetch me and went to temple. on the way, was chatting with them. they knew it that i din had my breakfast becoz I'm eating half day vege and dad keep nagging at me! cant stand it!! lol. today almost slip down for 2 times, the floor was watery and my shoes have no friction. tiring day~ gonna slp early. (:

2008-09-28T00:05:00.014+08:00

_SATURSDAY_

met up with junie, gracie and eve to study.
everyone was tired, so met up quite late.
studied at PS, mac.

photos time!

junie's ice-cream.

both of us had a hard time eating our ice-cream.

anyway,i dun entertain nameless ppl unless i know who you are. (:

_FRIDAY_

ytd dream of dad.

in my dream, smth happen to dad.

and today, he told me that ytd he went for check up

the doctor told him smth.

mum dunno abt it.

worry for him.

_THURSDAY_

had IOM presentation.

after that went bugis to have pepper lunch express and shopping.

enjoyed e times with them. ((:

took lots of photos!

gracie dearie. (:

grp mates. (:

gracie owas do that. (:

emo time.

" dou ji yan"

gracie dearie, junie dearie and me bought watch.

our relationship is complicated. (:

2008-09-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

since now is 12.04, i shld say ytd (sun), wake up at 8.30 and had breakfast with parents and grandpa. after that, mummy went market and dunno where daddy gone to, i pushed grandpa for a walk. dunno when is the last time i really talk and walk with him. it reminds me of grandma. miss her. (: after that, went fairprice and shop for daily necessities and foods! becoz i told dad that next time when we move to new hse, dun need to buy refrigerator is useless, nth inside. hahas. and we bought a lot of stuff. reached home, helped dad and mum did smth and got my "pay". hehehe. evening time, went granny's hse. all of us are perusing sis to go becoz the last time she went was on cny. damn long loh then she said: "go there also nthing to do, only watch tv and have dinner and go back home. " then we keep saying her, heartless! finally, she agreed to go becoz i'm going. lol. hmmm.. today is quite a boring day for readers ya? just blame the someone. =x becoz someone asked me to say goodnight story. LOL.

2008-09-19T23:48:00.003+08:00

had econ test today. last night, everyone was so stress and mugging till midnight. after test, thought that we cant make it. but after lecturer went through the paper. everyone was happy lah. shld know why? hahas.

finally managed to meet jiameng. think e last time i met her was 2+yrs back. damn long! had dinner at subway and chit-chatting. was updating each other. (: hmm... thinking how i know her? last time during orchestra days. senior needs to teach junior and she is not e one who taught me but dunno how, we become friends instead of just junior and senior. (: we still have a lot of things to update! shall meet up frequently. =D she very cute lah. that time she told me to take lots of photos when we meet then today she told me, she dress down. asked her to take photos, she dun want! see lah. i dress up, she dress down. goanna take photos on wed ( said by jiameng!). we shall see. hahas. (:

tml is sat means can sleep for the whole day!! yeah!! loves weekends. (:

*everyone will learn to grown up after smth happened to them.*

2008-09-17T19:21:00.009+08:00

Arrggh!!! cant stand e weather! its so hot~having headache again. ):
today late for school but still managed to reach before gracie's grp started to present. =D hand in peer evulation and attendance for ssel project. before that, we're thinking hardly on the rating. we didnt discuss but came out with e same rating. (greats mind think alike ya? hahas.)

after that, had some discussion on iom project and went for lunch and headed off to cck polyclinic. when i reach there, was 4.30pm and closed! wasted my time. lols. hoping that later after mum came back from work, she'll bring me to clinic. my ear is swollen! 很难看! >.<

today took Adidas bag to school and it reminds me of sec school life. 18 out of 9 had e same design of bag. 6black, 2white and 1 blue. everyone was looking at us when e whole grp were walking together. enjoy those days that we're together. (:

2 missing in action. LOL.

photos took on last week. (:

friendship starts from pri sch. (:

mango and coconut ice-cream!

yummy yummy!!

Happy Sweet 18th Birthday!!

2008-09-10T23:32:00.012+08:00

today, we're having SSEL presentation.

our grp is on e 1st week & is 4th one to present.

everyone was so nervous

while waiting for our turn.

when it came to our turn,
i felt so thirsty and nervous.
keep asking myself not to panic.

after presentation,

eve told me that she saw

my hand was shaking

while I'm talking.

I'm too nervous!

lecturer said that i did not

have eyes contact and

read too much from my script.

okies... I'll improve on it. (:

after that, i went back to my seat
and it's junie's grp turn.
while listening,
gracie told me that i
looked nervous.
yes, i am!
i also dunno why.
hahas.

class ended,
everyone seems to have smth on. ):
only left junie, eve ,feli and me
and we went cafeteria to have lunch.
it's cowarded,
so we decide to "ta bao".
junie, went to find gracie
while we're waiting for our food.

after that, we went to find a place to sit down.
we went to find gracie they all,
as we cant find any empty bench.

before we reached,

i saw junie is infront

and eve like using hand sign

then i was thinking,

are they planning to do smth??

reached and i was surprise

that everyone was there!

and they told me that
they purposely dun wish me after 12am!

they wanted to give me a surprise.

I'm damn happy that they celebrate for me

but i dunno how to show it. (:

photos time!

thanks gracie for e card.
heard that she did it till 6am
and din get any slp.
thanks sweetie! ((:

first time wearing formal wear. (:

thanks annie, for all the photos! (:

next, i went back home to change my clothing

before meeting chien juen and headed to imm.

i din know that she actually contacted

other D.H.F members too.(:

went walking around while waiting for others to reach.

and had dinner at pepper lunch.

photos time again!

dont you think that our pose are abt e same?

after that, DHF's rule began

clarence took e shortest candle and pushed into the cake

and asked me to use my mouth to take it out.

i knew that he is going to do if i really do it.

that's why i hesitated.

he took out the candle
and came out with 2nd choice,
is to eat up e cake and spill out the thingy that support e candle,

and put it into my nose.

who will do that sia??

so disgusting! LOL

3rd choice,

I'm going to use the cream to draw on my face.

must be 3cm long, if not he'll draw it for me!

asked chien juen to help me

but she "bu she de". (:

end up i drew it myself. =/

while clarence din notice it,
i used cream to draw on his face!
he wants to revenge!
and we started to play.

he also used chien juen to threaten qing wen.

and they were running ard.

so funny lah!hahas.

after that, we took some grp photos

and home sweet home. (:

will upload more photos after i got it. =D

thanks chien juen for e photos!

thanks everyone, for e wishes, surprise,
presents and everything!
joey loves you all. (:

2008-09-06T22:23:00.003+08:00

mum talk to me first.

she asked me

if i had order the cake.

and i tot everything is ok.

after he finish bathing, i

told him abt my projects,

presentation thingy

and formal wear etc.

after he answered the call

and things changed.

i heard what he and B conservation.

after e call ended.

he asked me a few times,

if can change it to thurs.

i was damn sad and angry,

becoz of B, he wants to change it to thurs.

say what B came back 8plus on wed

so change it to thurs.

then i tell him,

celebrate for what

thurs is not my bade anymore.

*tears rolling down*

he said coz thurs is

their wedding anniversary

and can celebrate tgt.

if you dun want, then dun want.

and i replied OK.

D: you want me to get you a pail?

cry like as if the world is going to collapse.

bade is not a big deal.

fine!

last tue when we mention abt celebration

he din say anything abt wedding ani

and he say if B came back from camp

then celebrate if not cannot.

so izzit helping me or him to celebrate?

its becoz of B then he change the date ok!

i'm so silly.

happily telling my friends and cousin

that parents are going to celebrate with me.

thinking that this yr will be different.
but its still the same.

they are the one who

give me hope

and blew it away.

I'm just nth.

they care only for B!

why does it happens to me every time?

issit my prob or them?

2008-09-05T22:07:00.004+08:00

the feeling is back again...

everything have changed.

all the plans are cancel.

if you tell others abt it

no one will believe

coz they think parents are right.

every fortune-teller told them that

i'll always quarrel with her

and always be "fang dui tang" and will not gam her.

then why they give born to me

in the first place?

doesnt it save a lot of trouble for them?

what hurts me is that

she said : " why would i have such a daughter?

comes to me when she needs money. "

okies. i have nth to say.
from now on, i wont ask her for money.
i'll find a part-time job to survive.

"xian mu" gracie and annie

when i heard what they said abt

their mum and them.

how i wish that it can happen on me.

i thought everything has changed after grandma had past.

but i was wrong.

just feel like leaving here...

2008-09-03T23:00:00.006+08:00

back to here again.

i'm lazy to post. =/

let starts with...

today is a tiring day.

morning lesson.

on the way to mrt station, my eyes are closed while walking.

reached class...

listen to lecturer and

she was like "cui mian-ing" us,

felt more sleepy. lols.

everyone was doing our own thing

as her lesson is so boring!!

all of us are waiting for break-time.

and our break-time is up to us. =x

we slowly eating and chit-chatting. hahas.

after lesson, we did our project.

din get to finish it by today. )=

next week is our presentation

and it falls on my bade!

too "lucky". LOL

it was chosen by me -.-

gonna get my formal wear by this weekend

coz i dun think i'm free on next week.

feel stress and panic even when I'm thinking it now

dun think i can speak well in front of e whole class.

Happy Birthday Gracie!!

2008-08-27T23:52:00.006+08:00

today is gracie's bade!
went kbox and took lots of photos.
let photos do e talking ya. (:

only upload some. =x

♥ Happy Birthday Grandpa! ♥

2008-08-23T23:54:00.009+08:00

today is grandpa's 75 bade. every years, dad will treat the whole big family for dinner when its grandparents bade. this year onwards will only help grandpa to celebrate as.... dad says that my chinese bade is the same as grandpa, this few years, they help grandpa to celebrate and me tgt except for last yr. (:

as usual, celebrate @ wen luan luo restaurant. 6 of us plus bro's gf bought a 2kg cake for grandpa. took lots of photos!! its fun. hope grandpa did enjoy himself. (:

these are some of the photos, others in friendster. go check it out! (:

cutie bernice!

Cousins!

Sweetie eunice. sis. mie.

Is my moustache nice? hahas!

Sista. (:

she wants to eat crab's shelves too? =X

will upload more after i get it from others. (:

Sec Sch Life. (:

2008-08-23T01:27:00.006+08:00

planning and meet up my girls during holidays. it's been a long since i met up with them. miss them so much! this few days, was raining and it's remind me of sec sch life.

sec1 and 2, gurls was kana pulled out by guys when its rain. everyone was playing while waiting for teacher to come. mr govin came to our class becoz all the window panels were kana taken out by us. perfects camp, seniors were telling us ghost stories before night walk and they were scaring us when we walked pass them and we get to know some of the senior. joined basketball and chinese orchestra. went for syf in sec2 and quit basketball.): thats the most difficult choice when our coach asked us to choose either one. right yuling? we got bronze for syf and we hugged each other and cried because we thought that we can did it better than that. have fun with seniors too especially jia meng! Lamo 5, was form in sec2. (:

sec3 & 4, even though 2G was separated but our hearts still joined together. our form-teacher, ms hoe! she is the best teacher that i have even seen. she seems to understand what we are thinking. she organised lots of outing and chalets to let us to have bonding and more united. rmb our sec3 camp? we won the best class award! Because we helped each other to wash up in the pool regardless of guys or gurls. guys will let gurls to sit on their legs while others helped to wash up and guys are helping gurls when walking along the muddy road. that surprised us too that we din realised it we actually did that. (: poor mr lai, was bullied by us. liquid paper on his pants. he left the sch after sec4 end. after he left, then we realised that he is a gd teacher. sec4, we went for our 2nd syf, this time round was without senior. we got silver. forgotten if i did cry. still rmb, we had to went back sch to do our dnt project during june holidays and everyday play basketball. (: lastly, lamo7 was formed. =D

sec 5, ms hoe left us. she went to teach other sch, but we'll owas rmb her! rmb when it was raining heavily, everyone was barefooted walking around the class as everyone's shoes and socks are wet and was kana scolded by ms wong becoz some of them have new polished on it. it was fun when she is around. her action make us laugh. (: she'll use her maker to draw on our hand when we cant answer her. she did that just to let us to be more careful and rmb our mistake. (: sec5, the last chalet? ms hoe joined us and we really have fun when she's around. miss her lots!

D.H.F is formed. it contains of 18 guys and gals. we actually did our dhf tees. although there are sad things that we encounted but we shall just rmb those happy memories yea? ((:

oh ya, not forgetting mr teo, the sexy leg. =x he really make us run a lot when nafa is coming.

think i'll just stop here. tears goanna roll down soon >.<

2008-08-17T00:56:00.007+08:00

just reached home. came back from changi airport just because of project.

tired and fed up! goanna post it out if not i cant sleep!

Firstly, she is the one that needs help from us, and why she is not saying it politely. she is totally ordering me what to do!! she's not my supervisor or what and i can just heck care her. lols.

Next, now then i know how "big" is Singapore. she needs more than 3 hr to travel from her house to woodlands.

Lastly, she can just msg half-way and tell me "gonna sleep now so will tell ya tmr". cant she just reply me and go sleep?? does a msg wastes ur time for ur la la land?

tml i'll see how she is going to reply me. if she really insists then i think we need to accompany her and teach her how to take train.

photos on my dinner @ ttc.(:

looks delicious right?? hahas!

2008-08-15T22:59:00.005+08:00

goanna have a busy weekends. have a lot of assignments and project to do and need to hand in by next week. dunno if i can hand in on time or can i say i dun even know if i know how to do it anot. Zzzz tml, we going to changi airport to do project. far right? no choice. next time, is our turn to choose a place that near us! (: i had lost the casing that you guys had written yours name on it. :'(

everyone lets work hard on our projects!

loves bathing,

it makes me think a lot. (:

2008-08-12T22:26:00.004+08:00

today was late for lesson again.Feli and i walking slowly to buy foods. green apple juice w/o juice?? so end up i really buy apple w/o juice.LOL! thanks Gracie for teaching me accounts! (: after lesson, meeting Jeslyn for swimming and she was late. so asked Feli to accompany me. went to yew tee, mac and ate ice-cream with fries. was doing accounts while waiting. she reached at 7 plus and went back home to prepare for swimming. the water is damn cold! it's raining before we swam. 5 laps before we went to bath. after that we headed off to yew tee kopitiam for dinner. ate spicy chicken ramen and was watching chn 8, 9pm show. thurs, Jeslyn is coming for swimming again. (: i want gym too!! hahas.

(lastest to oldest)

=)

2008-08-08T00:01:00.003+08:00

finally, misunderstanding is cleared!

*happy *

miss DHF gals!!

hope to meet them soon. (:

2008-08-04T17:43:00.004+08:00

this morning, i woke up early and wanted to do my individual assignment but my com wasn't working. i thought need to submit on wed but the deadline is tomorrow. =/ panic! luckily my cousin was not working today if not i dunno how am i going to do it. yesterday, on the way to causeway point, mum was complaining that dad seldom go out shopping with her, everyday only wants to work or just stay at home and dad was mumbling.. after awhile both of them are back to normal again -.-" went shopping with mum after movie. mum bought shoes and scarf and bought me tops and perfume. thanks mummy! (: dad waiting for us at car park and he fell asleep while waiting. hahas. ask you guys ah. if your parent and daughter are in danger and you can only choose one, who will you save?? difficult question right?

2008-08-02T21:12:00.012+08:00

[Fri ]

actually, yesterday night i was quite happy and looking forward for the dinner. but while i was waiting for feli to be ready to go school. i heard that not much people going for my friend's bade celebration. so saddening. there was some misunderstanding and if you dun say it out or ask, you wont know if it is truth anot. i also dunno what to do. sianzz.. on the way to school, me and feli was very quiet. both of us was thinking about our stuff. cant concentrate on whats the lecturer was talking about. felt better after telling juli and feli about it during break time. forget about it, there is nothing that i can do. after lesson, annie, eve, gracie, juli and me went to Clementi, sumohouse for dinner. not everyone was here. ):

[Sat]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHUHONG & JIAMENG!

actually planned to go JP, sakura to help ch celebrate de. but when i was on the way to JP, Eunice told me that ch cant make it. too bad cant celebrate with her but still hope that she will have fun. (: met Emily when i was on the way to grandpa's house. think the last time i met her was on 1st of may?? damn long sia. was chatting on our way and both of us bought ice-cream and tibits. the weather is too hot man. she sent me to the lift. Emily, remember our lunch hor!! hahas. bought swiss roll cake for grandpa and he dun wan it. too sickening to eat it everyday right?? but i thought he likes it. =x online booked "money not enough 2", tomorrow going to watch it with parents. long time din go watch movie with them le. think 6 months already?? yesterday mum felt happy and surprised that dad bought her a bag which cost 80bucks?? she said its been yrs. hahahs!

there must be trust between friends, if not friendship wont last long. if you really trust the person, you wont care about what others say about him/her.

iamwaitingforthepersontoonlinewonderingwhatsthepersonisdoing.

2008-07-28T22:28:00.004+08:00

back again. i wants to blog everyday but my com dun allow. i cant switch on the com for this few days. think my com is too old liao? i have too much things in my mind that i dunno where to start. what i can recall from my mind is that on fri, everyone is back to normal again, were laughing all the way. (:

sat, went to marina square to do our project. and thanks jeremy for coming down to sebawang to fetch us there. felt tired and sleepy as i only slept for 5hrs plus. met joshua and wilson and had some chit-chatting with them. while we'll discussing about SSEL project, jeremy and nicole came out with some weird ideas. buy one get one free coffin or hell notes?? LOL. after finish doing it, we'll chit chatting and were talking about ghost stories? i wasn't paying full attention on it as i was scare of that. =S on the way back, eve and jeremy was talking all the way and i was thinking about something. reminds me of the past. how i wish i can forget all those unhappiness memories. haiz..

sun, woke up at 8.30am to accompany my parents and grandpa for breakfast and market. our new car is here. took some photos. it looks much nicer and comfortable than the previous one. (: had afternoon nap as i din have enough sleep again. slept on dad's bed. and this is the first time i din dream of anything while sleeping. because everytime when i was sleeping on my bed, i'll keep dreaming till i'm awake, so even if i slept for 9hrs, i still feel tired. weirdo?? hahas. had dinner at granny's house. was playing with my niece. she was damn naughty. maybe because everyone thinks that she is pity, and pamper her too much?? now, granny din ask about bro and sis anymore. because she knows that bro in ns and sis confirm wont come de. dislike sis.. she only cares about herself and her bf. she loves her bf more than us. or maybe she dun even loves us and treats here as a hotel?? this is what my dad and mum think too. every sun, i'll watch my " 少年扬家将" damn nice!! got shuai ge too. hehehe!

today was having headache as the weather is too hot and something was troubling me. i keep thinking since last night. hmm... POA lesson. was confused at the starts, as lecturer was teaching us something new. after the whole lesson, still manage to understand it. (: feel that whole body was hot so took temperature, and its only 36.3 degrees! told mummy, and she said that i'm going to be sick soon. lols. this few weeks, mummy was not in a good condition. her "you yu zhen" is back again. she cant sleep for a couple of nights and dad took her to see doctor and the doctor helped mum to inject proteins into her brain and gave her sleeping pills. everyday, mummy looks tired and sleepy. i also dunno what to do. suggested to dad that should bring her to give doctor for cui mian so that we'll know what mum is thinking and can help her out. but dad didnt know where to find it. so if anyone knows, can kindly tell me?? hopes that mummy can recover soon. (:

photos time!

Me and Eve. (:

Daddy and Mummy. (:

Me and Moky. (:

RY and CJ. (:

Chuhong and Me. (:

Me and Cj. (:

Dad and our new car. (:

2008-07-24T18:14:00.003+08:00

hates today, the feelings and thoughts. my life is black and white. i'm useless and stupid. it seems that others are not in a gd mood too. i'm not gd in words. but just wanna say...hope that tml we can happily laughing. (: i needs ice-cream, chocolates and cakes!!!

2008-07-23T22:57:00.008+08:00

rainy day. when i woke up @ 6.45, i realised that my parents had went to work and lock their bedroom. i was like omg! how am i going to bath without water heater early in the morning? can you imagine that i was jumping here and there when i was bathing. the water is damn cold! as usual, meet eve and feli at 8.15, yew tee and i had my breakfast before going to sch. feli din go to sch as she is not feeling well. miss her laugther! eve din have umbrella, so we decided to take cab and the fare was... 30bucks! exp! managed to reach school on time. lecturer taught us on how to use mindmap and regarding our project. it makes me and eve angry when it comes to project. haizz.. arrange that this coming sat, we'll meet to do our project. hope no one will last time say.... after lesson ends, eve, june, annie and me went to yishun to have our lunch and walk around the shopping mall. this is the first time i go there sia. but there isnt much things to shop. after annie went back home, june, eve and me went to mac and chit- chatting again. it makes me think of the past. both of them taught me a new method of eating fries. it tastes nice! maybe one day i can teach d.h.f? hahas. (: hmmm.. think annie and june wont say i'm quiet anymore right?? izzit it a good sign?? hahas! lastly, i LOVES school and all my gals!!

2008-07-22T00:17:00.018+08:00

i'm back again. this few days din blog as my com dun allows me! LOL. eveyone is asking me how come i'm so quiet and ask me to talk more. i'm trying! at least now i'll try to talk to some of them. give me more time yea? photos time!!

shoes!

big stars!

random.

heads

group photo

us again. (:

juliana & me

me & annie

gracie & me

felicia & me

june & me

me & eve

eve & me

2008-07-16T20:25:00.006+08:00

yesterday, i was sick! wake up at 5am, feeling cold and cant fall asleep. waited until 6plus and parents woke up. while mum was searching for panadol, i vomited and after that i dun feel cold anymore. weird right?? lols. went back to sleep again and woke up around 10am and mum bought me ling yong shui. drank and ate breakfast and prepare to go school. dun want to miss any lesson. met eve and felicia and went to school together. whole body ache and have no strength to walk. feel like sleeping when lecturer was talking but still manage to ta han till the lesson ends. the lesson ends before 5pm because we were done with our group work. as time was still early, avelyn, june, eve , felicia and me sat down and chit chat and as usual, i din speak up. =/ (does my mouth have gold?) reached home and was having terrible headache. after dinner, drank green apple juice and panadol and felt better. went to bed at 10.30 as the next day still need to wake up early for school.

today was late for school again. went to sebawang to meet eve and wait for felicia who took cab from yishun. the fare was expensive sia, $24+. went to buy drinks and before we reach our classroom, i saw june they all standing outside classroom chatting and laughing. their voice are damn loud. there are two doors in between us and we can still hear their voice. can you imagine that. hahas. someone so xin fu sia got breakfast. all of us were teasing avelyn. as usual, lesson starts and everyone was quietly listening to what lecturer was teaching and our group was the noisiest. hahas. to say the truth, without them, the lesson will very boring. after lesson, 14 of us went to mac to have our lunch at mac and went to cold storage to do our project work. as we finish it early, we settle down at mac and chit chat. heard, learned a lot of things and change my opinion against some people. some people was two-sided people sia. kkies that all. dun it spoilt my mood. today took some photos. will upload when i get it. (:

2008-07-14T22:32:00.013+08:00

just started one week of school. get to know new friends. they are nice and cheerful people. the class will be full of laugther when they are around. enjoy to be with them. today lesson starts @ 1pm and we are late, so eve, felicia and i decided to take cab. reached sch @ 12.45 and when we went into the class, there was only a few people inside and few new faces. heard that today lesson starts @ 2pm but the timetable shows 1pm. toopid sia. wastes money to take cab. LOL! while we are waiting for the time to pass, we went to buy tibits, chocolate and sweets to prevent us from falling aslp during the lesson. =x think only our group eating during lesson time? hahahs. today lesson is on accounting. luckily today i still manged to know abit of what the lecturer is teaching. we will be having presentation on next week and a guy just join our group and he is our leader as no one wanted to be. looks like we are bullying him?? =x after lesson, went to popular to buy book and headed to jeslyn's hse. she made some cheese cake. it tastes nice. i'll learn it from her when i'm free. (: i'm tired. everyday need to think of what to wear to school the next day. sianzz. reached home. while waiting for my turn to bath. take a disc from my cardboard. it was a gift from ms hoe. watch the video she had make for us. it lets me to remind of every single things that we had done before. miss those days!! long time din get to see everyone of them. miss all of them especially miss hoe!! hope that we will have class chalet. really miss those days that we had spent together. =D

dunno why am i not speaking up when with them. i want to chat and laugh with them but i cant! whats wrong with me? can anyone tell me why?? )):

Valentine Day!

2008-02-14T22:15:00.003+08:00

today is valentine day. lets me think of last year. still remember last year during valentine day, every girls in our class are doing cookie or buy chocolate for everyone. for DHF, its special. all the guys share to buy chocolate for DHF girls. so touching! (: miss schooling time! this year, i made cookies for IRAS collegue. yesterday took leave to stay at home and made. somemore i am sick, having flu and sore throat. today got chocolate bar , chocolate kiss , drink and popcorn from them. thanks ya. (: today leonard told me that xainer may not be coming back then i told him that i will be working till end of feb. should i continue to work?? i asked the new staff when she will start answering call. " next week then you can go le. " she replied. did i hear wrongly? oh ya. my buddy, feiran and nisa were transfer to another department. miss them! i never forget my buddy leh. i also got made cookies for him. hehehe. our department become so quite when he is not around. miss his laugther. (: miss those time when we chat and laughing together. wish that time can stop at happy hours and time passes fast during sad moment. life will still need to be carry on. will try to be strong! (: gambate!!

2008-01-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

9 more days and i am going to leave iras. ): i dun wan to leave. who can help me to stop the time? even though i know that i'm not good enough to stay but i still wish to stay. who can help me??

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2008-01-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

ytd is the last day for yr'07. we went east coast park count down. meet ch first den meet others. she off work at 9plus. after work, i'm so lazy to go back home. keep persuading xanier to come out to accompany eat dinner and walk walk. i cant persuade her and find two helpers to help me. hahas. finally she agreed to come out. we went to eat sushi. end up leonard treat us. thanks! after that we went to novena sq walk walk and chit chat. leonard looks so tired and will collapse at anytime, so he went home first. after that we went to dhoby ghaut shopping. waiting time to pass. meet ch at city hall after her work. know what? i take the wrong direction wonder ch cant find me inside the train. hahaha! i'm so blur. reach bedok and wait for others to come. after that went to eat, guo ping treated me eat mango ice kacang. thanks. (: no more bus to east coast park. two pairs of couple took taxi and four of us took guo ping's dad car. free trip. hehehe. there are so many ppl at there. they are spraying ribbons and soap at each other or even stranger! our grp hide when they are coming towards us. hahaha. after we setter down. we play card games, guitar and sing songs. i received a song that compose by ivan, clar and qw. the song is meant for dhf guys and gals. touching! i recorded the song. this is the first gift for yr'08. all of us are tried, we went to take the first bus. we waited half an hour for the bus to come. reach home and went to slp. wake up at ard 1pm by my cousins. they came to my hse to swim and i was slping. =x slept for three hrs only. waiting for my afternoon nap. hehehe. goodnights. =x

a brand new year has began and it is a start of a new chapter. (:

2007-12-30T00:30:00.001+08:00

yoyoyo! i'm back again. hahas. ytd night jus came back from japan. reach home at ard midnight 12plus and tried to unpack all the stuffs. ard 2 den sleep. [ stuffs abt japan will post it ltr or can see it from hwee sheng's blog. (: ] morning ard 10 wake up. watched bull figthing and washed one week of clothes. tired sia. after that prepare to go for bbq at iras. when i was on the way to novena. i started to think and worry that will i have anything to chat with them or will there be a distance between us. after meeting them, the feeling was not that bad. played captain ball and "monkey". our bbq end at 8pm. early rite? the ppl there said we only can use the bbq pit till 8pm. ): after that went back to office, took group photos and one of my collegue send us home. noe what. 5 of us squeeze at the back seat. quite fun as they were guessing the name of the songs. seeing them playing and laughing. suddenly i felt so envious. i am the second last to reach home. i am so blur when they asked me how to go to my hse. wo shi lu chi. inside the car, i was thinking that ytd was the last day for xanier. starting from next week onwards i cant see her and listen to her laughter. ): and next time will be my turn. i dun want to leave! wo bu she de ta men! can the time stop moving? i am thinking of doing some handmade thing for everyone too. (: photos taken will try to get it and post it asap. (:

2 more days to yr'08.

2007-11-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

O level had ended. class chalet over. now is time to work. working is so stress! one week of training has passed. i feel so dumb. ytd had start to ans the phone. first time ansing the call, feel so nervous and when i was speaking, my voice was shivering. today is the second day of answering the calls. everyday will met a troublesome, terrible tp? tday i was being insulted by a tp. i cant blame him or angry because its really my fault. who ask me dunno how to speak fluent english. feeling down after that call. reach home and keep thinking abt it. i cant continue to be so timid. i must face the problem! i am going to try my best to answer it. i'll continue to keep trying and practising. practise makes perfect. tml will be a brand new day. (:

JIA YOU!!

2007-10-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

see the difference! The cake is delicious. LOL

my cake. (:

chuhong's cake. (:

2007-10-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

Yays!! after begging parents to let me go. i finally able to go japan during dec holidays. (: so happy that i can go with them. Know what?? after dad help me to buy ticket, he din intend to tell me (think he is going to give me a surprise?). I know it when my mummy saying out my particular to her friend. What a pity! hahaha. Wondering where will we be going. I want to go DISNEYLAND and play with SNOW!!! hahas. This "big news" have been four days already. Sis din know anything about japan trip because that time she din come back home for one week than parents are very angry. He leh? He only know that parents are going but din know I'm going along too. Hmmm.. if both of them know, they should be very angry with me?? Just now tell sis, she ask why never let her go and i keep quiet. =x (she still din know I'm going) Still waiting for dad's friend to send us the venue of japan. Maybe tml we'll know?? I'll update on my blog, when i know. ((:

Graduation Day

2007-10-05T19:19:00.000+08:00

Last night, i cant fall asleep. I keep thinking of today. Dunno should come to school anot. I keep thinking if come school, when we are celebrating, will i be alone?? And i keep stressing myself that, its alright since it is the last day of sch and keep reminding myself to smile and laugh. I laugh to make myself to feel better or i'm really happy to do so? If one day i left, what makes me regret or things that haven do yet?? It come directly to my mind, and i'm very sure of the answer to the qns. Know what i want to do? i feel like recording or write out my last word. What will you think of? I'm going to die soon?? LOL

Today is the last day of sch. Which means that 'O' level is around the corner. First three periods as usual. After recess, we go to hall for celebration. First, mr phor have a speech den follow by some teachers sing song for us. Ms haiza wear our school uniform and perform. She is so cute! hahas. After that, we watch a video. Inside, include everyone of us primary school photos to now. Everyone screams when they see their face on the screen. Everyone looks so different! It reminds me of ch's photo! ahahaha. School gives us a dvd as saviours. And a cd with words on the top i given by ms hoe. (: Miss her~

After celebration, we go back to class to take our report book. My result is damn bad! Wish that my 'O' level result will be much more better than prelim. (: After that is photo taking time,all of us are busying taking photos with one another. I feel that i shouldn't be there. I still cant face anyone. Why?? haiz.

On the way home, i think of many things. Its make me feel so sad and tears almost run down infront of all the passengers. I feel like saying out all the things that i had keep in my heart for a long time. But i just cant say it out! Thinking of asking my mummy to take me go visit xin li yi sheng. Maybe that will help me to change into a brave, outgoing and open-minded person and live happily from now on? How i wish i can.

I really wish that i can go for tonight steamboat with ms hoe and classmates. But i think, if i go there will be alone and sad bah?? Everyone are in pairs and at there chatting and laughing except me? Like i am an abnormal people that no one will come to me? Go eat with ms hoe should be a happy and fun thing rite? Think i wont bah. Sorry to those friends tat i have turn down. Really sorry:( I really appreciate it. Thanks.

Should i ask mummy??

happy birthday sweet 17th!!!

2007-09-10T18:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET 17TH TO MYSELF and MY BLOG!!! my blog is 1 year old le. hahas. still rmb last year i create this blog during midnight and they helped me a lot. thanks! even thought i nv update for a long time, i will still keep it as a memento. i'll update at least once in a year. hahas. took some photos. anyway, thanks for the wishing and present (:

2006-12-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

today went to town to look for prom dress. first went to eat. after tat went to daniel yan shop. i try 2 dress and likes 1 of them, but the dress abit 'cheap' hor so end up nv buy. abit disappointed coz chien juen and xiao qing bought dao their dress le. next went to isetan. saw a dress cute cute de. try it but no more my size=( tat time my mind all blank. thinking tat die liao lah nw still cant find dao dress. no time! next week still nid to go overseas! after searching for quite long, finally found a dress tat suit me de. thanks to them:) haha. after tat went to find shoes. chu hong they all bought their shoes le except me! actually saw a shoes to suit my dress de but still thinking tat tml maybe going to bugis to see if gt nicer de? after buying, went to buy necklace. hmm nw left wif shoes accessories bag to buy:) today quite relief? haha.

* 5 more days *

2006-12-01T17:16:00.000+08:00

quite a long time nv post le=X jus came back. jus nw went to meet jean, xiao qing to go bugis. surpise at i went out?? haha! went bugis to look for jeans and bao xie! wan buy bao xie so tat i go taiwan can wear but end up nv buy coz xq say wear shoes better coz there cold, ltr i cant walk=/ after finish walking bugis street, went to ICON. nid to jay walk before reaching ICON. it was raining and we onli haf 1 umbrella, so we share loh. after there are no cars, we cross the road. cross half way, dunno y xq suddenly stop in the middle of the road, when a car is moving towards her, lucky nth happen:) inside ICON, we keep looking for dress, but nt we like de. there de bao xie quite nice. after walking for a few hrs, xq complaint tired! haha. so we rest at mc and ate an ice-cream. after tat, we walk awhile and went back. tml going out again. hope tat i can buy dao i like de dress=D

* 6 more days *

2006-11-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

finally i am back to update again. haha! sch holidays shld go out walk walk and play de rite? but for me, almost everyday stay at home using com. so sianzz. last tue, xq they all went to chalet except for me =( *jealous* den i stay at home playing maple and watch anime. today they came back frm chalet. all say v tired and whole body pain?? toopid com! everytime bully me dun let me use! den today wake up nth to do, so went to search sis cardboard to see gt wat show to watch. den search dao 5566 de dvd concert. after watching the concert suddenly like sam wong and ming dao! haha! also dunno why sia. ard 4 plus den use online play maple and want to watch Inuyasha frm pplive de but the show like dun haf le=( hmm class chalet is on 20nov to 22 nov?? looking forward! hope chalet will be fun=) my maple finally lvl30 le. haha! thanks to wh:) he keep helping me train. haha. next time den update bah. byes. take care~

压力是让人成长的力量??

2006-10-07T13:34:00.000+08:00

finally i am back to update! haha... ytd was lantern festival... we went to our sch there de canal to play... at first haf about 12 ppl de... but end up onli haf jean, eun, huplain, derek, cj, xq, her bro n me... others haf something on so cant make it... we meet 7.30pm... but end up ard 8 then all reach... all becoz of me... i nv say clearly where to meet... hai dao jean n derek went to the worng place... sorry... after all of us reach... we walked to canal n light up our lantern... our lantern all damn small ( smaller than mine hand)... tink onli ours de are the smallest... saw others de lantern all big big de so xian mu... haha... walk walk n find an empty place... we hang our lanterns on the tree... we start to play wif candles n sparkles... we throw sparkles into the canal see who throw the furthest... haha... saw kang wei n xuan zhi... n they join us... eun, huili, xueli, chiayee n huizhen join us ard 9plus... eun join us playing sparkles n take photos... the others 4 sit in a circle n play wif candles... after awhile xueli they all went back le... tink ard 10? after tat we wan to walk ard the canal wif lantern so trying to light up our lantern... but guys keep blowing out our candles... naughty naughty! haha... i nid to twist my lantern to make it stable so ask xq to help me take my lantern... but end up my lantern burn... sobs... no lantern to take... but nt onli me dun haf... xq n guys also dun haf... those who nv take lantern de take sparkles to walk... dunno y walk till half way? cj de lantern also burn out... haha... kang wei keep bullying xq's bro... he so ke lian... but at least he haf someone to play wif him... haha... walk till the end of the canal n walk back... dunno y suddenly say wan to scream... so we gals scream together... haha... we also sing while walking back... after tat we went to coffee shop to wash hand... then went to mama shop to buy drinks... tink onli me buy biscuit to eat... hungry leh dinner nv eat... haha... after tat we went back home le... tink ard 11.10? derek, jean n me took the same bus... after jean n derek alight... onli left me n a guy inside the bus... so quiet! lucky haf someone to acc me sms if nt i sure fall aslp de... haha... alight at je n took train... so many ppl inside the train sia... so squeeze... alight at yt n walked back home... the road so dark n no ppl de... scary sia... walk walk then heard like gt someone behind me??? i dun dare to look behind! so nv go care... onli ask myself to walk faster... haha... then reach home at ard 11.50pm... will upload those photos after i get it... haha... ytd was fun ((:

2006-09-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

boring~ dunno wat to write so nv update... but since my friends keep asking me to update so here i come:) tis week taken all prelim papers le except for chinese... my results very lan loh... goanna to do smth to improve for my weakest subject... but i'll nt improve in history de but i damn hate the teacher... today in class tok then she scold us... other ppl also gt tok loh nt onli us... today we tok abt smth then very angry loh... nvm...

overall i onli can say:" i'll treat you the way you treat us".

i wont waste any of my 60sec on useless things((:

2006-09-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

whole day stay at home...so boring~ in the late afternoon went to ah ma's hse wif mum.... on the way there, she ask me y last week i like so angry... i dun feel like answering her... but in my min i keep tinking then cry out... after tat we went to visit dad... at hospital suddenly feel better n peace (dunno y)... then on the way home... i suddenly ask my mum.... u noe tat y i last week angry wif u? after tat we talk n talk... i say out wat i tink frm last time till now (but nt all)... but after saying out, tink like to her is no difference de??? haiz... maybe wat i tink is right...

if i noe u for 16 days... n noe my friend for 4 days onli... my friend will understand n care for me more than u... becoz she is seriously wan to understand me n be there for me... nt like u jus say say onli...

dun put to much hopes in a thing or smthing else... if nt u'll get hurt easily...

trust me...

2006-09-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

today so tired! today haf 3 prelim... physic, chemistrty n chinese paper1... physic paper still can do... chem so diffcult, dunno wat the qns is asking for... pity ms lee... ytd she stay back teach us till 6.30pm then can go home... then nw i dunno hw to do... goanna fail chem... chinese paper1....hmm... still ok ok loh... dunno i wrote the right thing ant... by the time i do finish onli left 5 minutes... then saw almost everyone was lying on the table slping... i do damn long sia... haha... after tat then come back home le... on the way back, raining heavily.... i no umbrella! den reach home keep sneezing... haha... tml dnt n chinese paper2... going to fail dnt again... sobs.

tired~

2006-09-12T16:06:00.000+08:00

today had eng paper2 n history prelim... i nv study for my history coz i noe tat i sure fail de=X den when others r doing ur history paper... i was actually sitting at there daydreaming... haha... but i still gt write words on the paper( all crapsXD )... after exam, actually going gym wif jean, carol, cj n ch de... but end up nv go coz jean cant go... haha... nvm... next time also can go((: so after tat cj n mie went to popular to buy pen den after tat went home... reach home use com... jus nw was editing my blog... my friend say my tag board very difficult to see... haha... so i go change liao...finally my blog is done... wahaha...happy~ haha... tml i having emaths paper1 n 2 but i haven study yet=X nid to go study le... byes... tc~

* happy day *

2006-09-11T18:48:00.000+08:00

today having prelim, eng paper1 n amaths paper1 so we ard 12 plus leave sch... jean, lm, carol, ys, derek, eug, yc wan to go cu eat so went wif them... eat half away, cj say tat xq coming over to meet us... xq nv take amaths so she went home earlier than us... frm 1pm say wan come, end up ard 2 then reach? haha... after eating, cj say wan to toliet so wo pei her go... she slowly taking her own sweet time to tie her hair, wask mouth n go toliet=X after toliet, we went back to our seats, then saw xq reach le...when i reach our seats, saw a bade cake, it was a chocolate wif strawberry on top of it...they were trying very hard to light up the candle but the wind is too strong so end up nv light up n they sang a bade song for mie... i make a wish:) after wishing, i onli cut abit on the cake n the rest yc help to cut to gif each n everyone a piece of cake... my cake is special de... gt 'candle stick' put at the side of the cake... they ask me to use my mouth to take it out... when i trying to take it out, toopid xz go push my head...chocolate r all ard my nose n mouth=X xz becareful next yr i'll take my revenge de...haha... after eating, jean they all went back... eun n ch pei wo go cut hair... cj pei xq eat her lunch... after tat all went home... on a 98bus, a saw song jun n his friends... after his friends alight he came over n we were chatting all the way to je centre... sometimes i will saw him at c u there but tis is the 1st time chat wif him for so long... haha... sj went to library to return bks n i went back home... over all, today haf a great fun wif them((:*

* my birthday cake *

* thanks everyone *

hope tat my wish will come true((:

my birthday((:

2006-09-10T03:34:00.000+08:00

today is my bade... n is the day when my blog is born... today at 12am sharp, many of my friends sms n in msn wishing me... so happy:) they are chien juen, xiao qing, huili, xuan zhi, eugene, qing wen, zhen fu, clarence, hui hui, patrick, hontat, lilian, ivan, yuling, siang yi, hwee sheng, kok siang, wan hao, kang wei, benson, xue li, hong chen n eric. thanks everyone=D actually i dun look forward to mine bade coz i will tink of the past n unhappy things tat past few years hw i spent my bade de...ytd nite i nt in a gd mood when i saw my parents... tinking of hw they treat me n my sis when we bade... the difference is so big... jus cant believe it... abt 10 plus cj, xq n mie conference... both of them r too lame... make me laugh then after tat i feel better le... coz i noe tat my friends will owas be there for me de:) thanks my friends^.^ nw 3.34am going to slp le... nites.

*FRIENDS FOREVER*